I'm not trying to sound like a total know it all or make myself seem like a total princess. I don't fit in, I'm overweight, I don't appear how everyone wants me to and I don't act like it, but the most important thing is: it's annoying. Annoying having everyone looking down on me like I'm some hideous creature. I'm not ugly; but I'm not skinny, but that's not beauty. And if that is anyone's definition, they're obviously mistaken. But what I'm getting at is that I'm absolutely fed up with it. I try not to care, I really do. And I'll even say it, I DON'T CARE. But I find that to be a lie. I am human, after all. As much as I wish I weren't, I am. I can't help it, being my species. And why should I act like I do care about people's stupidity? Everyone who I'm describing is not my worst enemy, they are people I like, people I get along with. But also, I don't know a lot of them. And I don't get along with all of them. It's as if I were made completely different from everyone else. Can I be like them? Yeah, I can fake it. But why bother...why bother at all? I'm not like them. I'm not desperate for my true love, as long as I am loved in some form, I'm okay. I don't want only the good, honestly, then what would my life be? I don't want to know how it all began...It's not for me, not for anyone to know. It never was, as a cycle, it started, and it might not end. 12-12-12 is a bunch of BS, I say. It's all failed symbolism that people attempted to predict the future with because they wanted to know. What fun is life knowing when and how you will die? None, I say. Then you might be scared and go crazy or just get it over with and there's no point that way. Human sanity lines are like thin threads, waiting for the wrong information to come in like scissors and snap those sanity lines.
I just don't understand...people. They're amazing creatures, but barely anyone really doesn't care. NO one, not me, not you, because somewhere we're all just on the right side of the sanity line. Once we cross over, we've gone insane. Then we really don't care. Not at all